I was diagnosed with depression at roughly the age of 13-14, it’s all that I can really remember and my behavior has become revolved around coping with my depression. Shortly after my 17th birthday my condition had deteriorated so badly that my life ended up on hold, I was sick all the time, exhausted all the time and I ended up being diagnosed with a personality disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder is generally not diagnosed until 18 and/or older because it’s a pattern of various behaviors, it’s an extremely complicated form of mental illness with other illnesses appearing as symptoms. Most of the time the symptoms(other mental illnesses) are treated as the primary illness and the result is many patients end up on a lot of unnecessary medications, I’m lucky I’ve remained on very few medications and focus more on understand why I do things that I do.
One of the things that psychologists have told me for my whole “therapy life” that I think too much and the topics I think about help to make me depressed. However thinking is the one thing that gives me comfort, understanding life and the things that go on around me helps me to get though my day. Often I’ll write down what I’m thinking, in conversation form, and a lot of the time it’s philosophical topics that I’m thinking about. However because I’ve had(and am still having) a hard time I have a tendency to be blunt, harsh and straight forward. I’ll tell you what I think, why I think it and how I see it, I’m not out to insult or flame anyone(other then the Government, I don’t like the Government at all!) I am here to do is provide my own thoughts so that maybe I can make a difference to someone.